sexy...

Its been in my mind lately.. the whole concept of sexy.. so many people wanna be it.. so many of us troop to the gym just to get that body of ours fitting that definition of sexiness we see in magazines everywhere.. i know.. because i am one of them...

nothing like a chat room to quash your self esteem.. yesterday i was chatting online and i happened to be chatting with this nice fellow from belgium.. sent him my pics.. then he just laughed and told me sorry he prefers slim guys.. now i know im not exactly fat.. but im well aware that i dont fall exactly to current society's definition of thin..i mean who knew being thin these days involves being similar to that of an ironing board? so that sort of really crushed my ego.. and i was beating myself up over it last night..

then i realized that there really is no use thinking much about it.. one man's fat guy maybe another man's perfect mate :) haha i cant believe i just said that.. what im driving at is that sexiness is relative.. so what if you fit the definition of sexy but you dont believe it yourself? you spend way too much time primping yourself in the mirror yet you have no idea whats going on in the world around you.. that for me makes you an empty shell.. lovely varnished, but still empty...

i guess im redefining how i perceive sexy.. im gonna place more importance in the person rather than on the outside appearance.. someone who is smart.. sensible.. and witty would certainly win over me anytime.. a 6 pack abs is not forever you know..

i still will go to the gym.. but this time im gonna focus more on getting healthy.. to hell with all that pressure to be sexy and thin.. ive had enough.. :)

what do you guys think? :)